How many times? How many times must I put Humpty Dumpty back together again? A broken conversation interspersed with tears falling from rounded cheekbones, tears cried once more. How do you tell Humpty that sometimes, it is not worth the fall? How do you tell Humpty not to jump instead of fall? How?
I was humpty over Humpty years ago. I let that go, I forgot how to leap into being humpty and how to take that fall. Instead, I soared openly into someone new but that didn't work either.
To stop Humpty from jumping; leaping down into the tears, into sadness, into confusion, I am asked to explain how I stopped being humpty over humpty. How do you explain to the vulnerable that you have to love to get past (the wrong) love? Is it possible to explore your biggest mistakes without having it hurt? When does the pain of remembering outweigh the positive of helping others? It wasn’t challenging to say no to the showers, it is harder to resist the cries for help, those echoes that should be in the past. How many times should one autopsy your fatal flaws for the benefit of Humpty?
i dont think it's possible to explore the biggest mistakes without pain.... not at first at least. in time, yes, you can look back analytically, with little pain. but in the beginning - it just hurts.
ReplyDeletehang in there though. there are 6 billion, almost 7 billion people on this earth. to think that there is no one out there who will meld with us, understand us, and love us is just plain silly. there's someone for everyone... and i would argue that there are at least a few really fabulous options for everyone. i mean - 7 billion! the odds are good! so, hang in there, keep your head up, and don't settle.
two down; a few billion to go...
Would you take those odds to Vegas? When shall we go? Or should we think larger than Vegas? My passport is current...
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